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Memory

As I sit alone in your room
After you have gone
So far from me, so far from my arms
I stand at your crib
I run my fingers across where
your head once rested at night
to sleep.
Never again will I say goodnight
Never again will I say I love you
Never again I will be able to hold you.
As I sit in your room
After you have gone
So far from me, so far from my arms
I hold your little blankie in my hands
I run my fingers across the teddybear
That was bigger than you
Never again I will say goodnight
Never again will I say I love you
Never again I will be able to hold you.
As I sit in your room
After you have gone
So far from me, so far from my arms
I hold your first outfit so close to my heart
That once kept you warm.
Never again I will say goodnight
Never again will I say I love you
Never again I will be able to hold you.
As I stand at your graveside
After you have gone
So far from me, so far from my arms
I shed a tear, a tear that is the
beginning of many
I will never again
Say goodnight
Say I love you
Or ever be able to hold you
"TEARS, TALK, TIME, AND TOMORROW"

I never thought I could go on living when you died, but....I did.
I never thought I would survive after burying you, but....I did.
I never thought I'd get through those first days, weeks and months,
but....I did.
I never thought I would be able to endure the first anniversary of your
death, but....I did.
I never thought I would let myself love my new grandchild, but....I did.
I never thought tomorrow would be different, but...it was.
I never thought I would stop crying for you, but....I have.
I never thought that I would ever sing again, but....I have.
I never thought the pain would "soften", but....it has.
I never thought I would care if the sun shone again, but....I do.
I never thought I would ever entertain again, but....I have.
I never thought I would be able to control my grief, but....I can.
I never thought that I could function without medication again, but....I
can.
I never thought I'd smile again, but....I do
I never thought I would laugh out loud again, but....I do.
I never thought I would look forward to tomorrow, but....I do.
I never thought I'd reconcile your death, but....I have.
I never thought I would be able to create that "new normal", but....I
have.
I never thought I'd want to go on living after you died, but....I do.

Always missing you, always loving you, and thinking of you daily,
With a smile on my face....and tears in my heart.

Author unknown

IF WE COULD HAVE YOU BACK

If we could have you back for just
one day,
There would be so many things we
would like to say.
If we could just be with you for
one whole day,
to have you close and know that
you really are okay.
If we had known that you would
be gone forever,
If we had known all those ties
were going to be severed,
If we had known the pain, the loss,
and the ache,
if we had known the difference
without you would make.
In the darkness you slipped away
from us all,
Now it's just your memories
that we have to recall,
They say that parting is such
sweet sorrow,
But it's the longing, the wondering,
and how to cope with tomorrow.
They say that grieving a child is
very worst,
Cause life's plan is that the
parents should go first.
Now all we have are memories,
the good times that we had,
We spend so much time in tears,
and pain and feeling sad.
So if we could have you back for
just one day,
You could let us know to cope until
that judgment day.
When we'll be together as a family
once again,
When we'll all be happy and
free from all this pain.
Oh ! It's so hard to live when
your child has to die,
Then we spend our lifetime trying
to say Goodbye !
I Stood By Your Bed Last Night

I stood beside your bed last night,
I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying,
quietly in your sleep.
I touched you softly
as you brushed away a tear,
"It's me, I haven't left you,
I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."
I was close to you at breakfast,
I watched you pour coffee,
You were thinking of how much you
were in LOVE with me.
I was with you at the store today,
Your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels,
I wish I could do more.
I was with you at my grave today,
You tend it with such care.
I want to reassure you,
that I'm not really there.
I walked with you to the house,
as you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my hand on you,
I smiled and said "it's me."
You looked so very tired,
and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know,
that I was standing there.
It's possible for me to be
so near you everyday.
To say to you with certainty,
"I never went away."
You sat there very quietly, then
smiled, I think you knew ...
In the stillness of that evening,
I was very close to you.
The day is over... I smile and watch
you yawning and say
"goodnight, God bless,
I'll see you in the morning."
And when the time is right for you
to cross the brief divide,
I'll rush across to greet you and
we'll stand, side by side.
I have so many things to
show you, there is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out
then come home to be with me.

Author......Unknown